"If my wounds could talk"

Everybody goes through things in life. Whether it’s their fault or not. We share things in hopes of help, better understanding or to just have someone to trust but it never turns out that way. When venting to get something off your chest to someone you think cares about you, you never expect it to turn into the knife that stabs you. You never try to be a burden to anyone nor become a sob story that lurks in the shadows where nobody wants to be around you. We live, we learn, we move on. Some people won’t let you move on. Believe it or not there are people out there, people who are close to you and people who don’t know you, that will pray on your downfall. Why? I ask myself this every day. Speaking from my personal journey I too am experiencing the stabs from people hiding their hands. I’ll admit, I have come a long way in the land of the living but I’m forever learning and enjoying my peace and happiness where it lay. Some people want what you have or don’t want you to have anything because they don’t know how to conquer that peace and happiness for themselves. It’s sad that people will link up to be against someone especially if they don’t know that person for themselves just to say they are loyal. I would say it to say they are stupid and don’t have a mind of their own. We as adults can act like children just as much as children act like themselves, and that’s sad. Here I am in a new phase in my life, married and there are people out there so determined to destroy me just for the sake of seeing me suffer. Why though? How does it benefit them? Are they getting paid? I used to let what people said about me effect my mood, my mindset, my lifestyle. I was so set on pleasing others, being perfect, needing to be everyone’s friend that I didn’t know who I was. I had to check myself because I was living in a cycle where I was allowing hurt and disappointment, even in myself. That’s where a lot of us are stuck in our life because we’re afraid that we’re going to miss out on something instead of focusing on ourselves. I’m so happy that the many times I have stumbled and have falling that I never let my wounds bleed. I patch them up and keep going. It may not always be the right way but it’s always something that must be done. I used to get sad when I would reach out to women who I admired for guidance, love and support just to see them talk about me as if I was beneath them. I stop turning to people and turned fully to God. People have conversations about me and that’s one of the many reasons why I choose to be a loner and that’s cool. If my wounds could talk you wouldn't believe that I am still alive. We go through so much that people will always try to top that pain to be on top. To have that feeling of control. It will never happen no matter have many scares appear in my life. The only friend I need is God and I must say I have never been happier in life as I am today. It might have taken me years to figure that out but I’m truly at peace. I have had so many Ideas for my business and brand that they all failed due to my disobedience. My lack of work and my trust in too many people. I learned the hard way that everybody doesn’t have to know your every move. You don’t need the support and approval of everyone to do what you need to do. When you get the vision get to work. You must do what’s best for you. Nobody can live your life, they might want it, but they cannot live it. I’m rooting for the under dogs because I know there are hidden greatness within them. I believe in you all, go and live for you. YOU GOT THIS!!